Sky Queen, Collage by Val Olson, 2007
Enthusiasm, Commitment, Consistency and Honesty
Of all the ground covered in today’s Master Key webinar, enthusiasm, commitment, consistency and honesty are the four words that stand out for me. And the concept of sacrifice.
Honesty and the DMP
I’m an extremely enthusiastic person. However, as I reflect on today’s Master Key material, I admit that my natural gift of enthusiasm has previously been overshadowed by inconsistency and lack of commitment, especially by being dishonest with myself. I don’t mean always. I’m honest, but on a scale of 1-10, I’m about a 5 when it comes to my record of being honest with myself. I’m setting myself straight with myself now, starting with revising an honest DMP.
When Mark said today that, “Enthusiasm is the key to achieving everything that you’ve always wanted”, I was glad he also brought up honesty. That’s because my former “river of dreams”pattern WAS to lead / start with enthusiasm, but not back it up by self-honesty, commitment and consistency. I’m not talking about day-to-day honesty in the sense of being a liar. But in the key domains of my life, I’ve fooled myself over and over again. Ouch. I’ve told myself, “This is the year I’ll write my next book”, or, “I’m going to mediate every day now”, or, knowing I’m better off without food that’s high in sugar, yet buying a carton of Trader Joe’s coffee ice cream. The words self-deception make me cringe, yet I have majored in it. I’ve broken big and little promises to myself thousands of times. This isn’t to say I haven’t achieved a lot of what I’ve set out to do. I’m proud and happy about my achievements and about how much adversity I’ve overcome. Others would tell you I’m a winner. And yet. And yet.
Motivation and the Detour
In 1997 when I discovered business and life coaching, I fell in love with it and decided to launch my own business. However, my biggest motivation in becoming self-employed was so I’d have the time to write that I didn’t (think) I had working full-time.
My coaching business was so successful that I allowed it to eclipse my original purpose of starting a business, which was to carve out more time to write books. I wrote one manuscript before I started coaching in 1997, and two e-books a few years ago. However, consistently acting on my heart’s desire to be a published author has shown up much more in my journals, and in conversations with myself and others, than in my daily life and practices. (Hence my long blog posts!)
If I had been honest with myself, where would I be now? I stayed in several relationships that weren’t good for me over the course of seventeen years, all because I wasn’t honest with myself. In writing my DMP, I don’t know what to write about a romantic relationship, yet. It’s extremely humbling and feels vulnerable to share this.
Sacrifice and What Serves Me and Others
Another thing that stands out for me from the Week 3 webinar is the notion of sacrifice. Writing this post has helped me identify what I want to sacrifice.
I now sacrifice FEAR, for it previously prevented me from realizing ALL of my heart’s desires. I sacrifice FEAR in it’s following forms:
~ putting the needs of others over my own (fear of rejection)
~ dishonesty about my needs, wants, desires, thoughts, emotions, etc. (fear of abandonment)
~ perfectionism about things that aren’t consequentional (fear of not being good enough)
~ procrastination by majoring in minors and (fear of failing)
To achieve this sacrifice seems like a very tall order, but I know I’m in the right place at the right time doing the right things that enable me to sacrifice what doesn’t serve me or others.
It takes great sacrifice to be the Sky Queen.
“Do the thing you fear to do and keep doing it…that is the quickest and surest way ever yet discovered to conquer fear.” – Dale Carnegie